They aRe UniQue~~

They might be sick,
they might be pityful,
they might be aggresive,
they might be hallusinating,
they might be deppressed,
they might be austistic,
they might be euphoric,
they might be seems to be scary,
they might be out of their mind,
they might be paranoid toward the world,
they might be lost in their own world...
BUT they are unique!!!

Psychiatry...when hear of it, the 1st thing in everyone's mind will be 'OH Oh, is it the place for mentally ill patient??''.

Everyone undergoes the phase of being disturbed mentally. U, me, us... No denial,no exception....
stress, depression, sadness are part of everyone's life. We stressed up with work, relationships leading to depression, sadness take over our world by unpleasent news. YET we are still here, and they are in there...:)

WHY?!!!

There is no proper answer can be given...Many aspects are being accused for them to be like that and for us not to be like that;
family, family background, studies, frens, work, economy, social..and the list can go on AND on.

They are unique still...
By avoidance, they gain the love of their close one;
By ignoraning people around, they gain attention from most people;
By hurting others, they gain the carefulness fron others;
By being jobless, they gain more time for themself; (hehe)
So they are UNIQUE...!!!

!! She Just Said "MasyaAllah" !!

Past few days, everyone making me feel totally depress in all the way possible. Until I lose my confidence...

" I think u just act u are sick one particular day, shiva"-my group member.

"Sont expect of passing with ..." said a gal.

And...
"who is ur...??" another fren asked. i told her "X"
The next word came out from her was "MasyaAllah"....and my eyes become watery on the spot. Couldnt take it anymore the way people discouraging me...

I know I'm my luck is terribly bad, but I still have faith on me, on HIM...I dont mind if u cant be my streangth but please stop being unsupportative....:p

!! One Heart Break !!

I'm talking here as a gal. "Love is only once in a lifetime". I think its bullshit. We cant fall in love with someone and ended up marrying that person because life is not a cinema where it has to be one hero and one heroine. As we travels all the way though, we might fall for someone at anytime, and we might fall in love as many times possible until we find the RIGHT one. Dont u think so??!!

Was having a drink with a friend just now, releasing stress. She was telling bout her love life and was sad that she havent find the right one yet. Then i told her, 'a gal at least must fall in love once, and has one HEART BREAK. it will definitely make her be more matured. Me always hold to it. Plus, my friend also had the same thought. She added, "we should have this phase (loving someone, then have a heart breke), in a gal's life. It will make the gal to be more mature and do the right decision in choosing the Mr. Right in the future.

Loving someone is not like meet once, talk awile then couple up. That is not yet consider as love; its still in phaase of liking someone. Being deeply in love with someone is a very long process where it involves trusting each other, understand each other pros and cons, tolaterate each others attitudes...bla..bla..bla!!!

After talking to her, i feel like I havent grow any mature yet....



Nobody's heart will be perfect without any 'defect'...Every single HEART would have been sctretched, or would have deep wound covered by plasteror strungled by rope as in this picture...:p

~~DoN't bE a DocToR tHeN...:p

dr.A : "pak keluhan bapak pa?" asked the docter right after the patient sat; with a scary face without greet the patient. While she anemnesis the patient, at the same she was busy prescribing the medication for him. And I notice the patient become uncomfortable when the doctor didnt bother to silent to what the patient was saying.
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dr.B : "ibu Eni ya. gmana hari ni bu?ada pa2 keluhan?" with a friendly smile the doctor started his anemsis once the patient settled herself on the chair. After that slowly he asked bout her health, is she following her medication properly or not, whether the medicine causing her any troblesome or not...bla bla...:)
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Am not going to comment nything bout the above senario, not gona critisize bout it. Its just a example for us to know how are we actually towards the patient; is it like the 1st one or the 2nd...U should know better.

Nobody is stupid...so forget bout the knowledge. Here, just take a moment to think how are we to the patient. A friendly smile with a warm greeting is just more than enough, each time meet the patient, to make them feel much better and they will be very comfortable to share bout their pain and also will feel secure to be traeted by us. Am sure most of us does it; but do we all the time??!! TRUST me, that works 1oo% to get know better bout the patients disease...dont u think so??!!!

Some of us like to show our uneasiness or our stress to the patient; 'SOUR' face!!! (hehe)
some treat the patient like a subject for them to experiment. For god sake la, put ourself in their shoe and see. are we willing to be treated like that??!!!

'Wear' a SMILE on our face all the time. We are not going to lose a single cent by doing that. And be friendly. My preceptor says, "none of the patient going to tell the others, that doctor is very knowledgable; they will tell, go to this doctor, he/she is very kind".

Your SMARTNESS doesnt reflect how good you are but your EMPATHY...('.")v

p/s: personal opinion..hehe

"jangan pake perasaan"

It was my 1st 'jaga' in UGD (emergency). Since i was in NC department, there was a head injury patient who needed debridement for his wound on his head. So i prepared all the stuffs as the resident ordered. Then started with the cleaning.

i did 'sheeesssshhh' when saw the patient in pain. The resident beside me told,
"siva, kalau mau jadi dokter, jangan pake perasaan waktu mengobati pasien"...:p

1st i was kinda shocked with that statement but then only its hit my mind that of course, if i have emotional contact with patient,my work couldn't be done at any time soon...:p

thats how i started to learn things throughout the 9 weeks in surgery depatment...:) it was really fun n felt like being a real doctor especially during jaga, yet had some hard times too... (u know nothing can be as smmooth as we want).

started with NC, then onko-uro-thorax-vascular-anak-plastik-degestive, and ended with ortho..n this nine weeks were so good that no heart to leave 'surgery' department this soon..what to do, duwana prolong oso..:p




Last day in Nc-(operation teater)















i always wont be in the shot coz im the who is taking those pic..:(

gonna miss this department alot..:p

Bedah~~~

Itz been a hectic week...:p
Pre-koas, registration, then intro for the department. What a life??!!
The 1st thing I learned in these 2 days is "PATIENCE"...as a Koas should know how to be patience no matter what, Coz the only thing you have to do is wait and wait and wait at the corridor..:p

"they said all the surgery department 'Koas' must gather at the department at 1pm, got briefing. But we were waiting there for like 2 hours no one showed up, we were standing there like 'anak terbiar'...huhu. 3 pm, a resident came gave some talk for 20min then she said every group must meet their preceptor tomorrow"
She couldn't give the briefing and postponed o the next day also.

Yet, the same thing happened on Friday also...but,at least had the briefing at 4pm.

I felt like im blind-folded and left somewhere.
Weird word-STASE (still finding the meaning of this word)
Then, 'jaga'-must be at the emergency ward sharp at 3pm, but only can sign the attendance at the department after 3pm...How??!!!! (very confusing)
Must assist at least 1 surgery, and we must find the opportunity by ourselves...haihs

chaiyok sita...chaiyok....!!!
Lets ROCK the department...yahoo...huhuhu

Why?!!!

"why are u having a Quran in ur room"
"since when u started to read it?"
"U just reading to know right?"

Oh Oh...im tired of all these...Questions and warnings...!!!
Is the love I had for Him,KRSNA, not enough to prove everyone that i wont leave HIM...!!! I always loved Him and Surrendered to Him. mein to hamesha Uski jhogan bhanke rehoongi...:)

Furthermore, religion2 all doesn't play any part here. Since I know the destiny of my life and the way to find it, nothing can stop me from Loving Him or turn my back to Him..:)